Vaccinated!

[garnigal]

Derek and I got our first shot of AstraZeneca. While most people I know (Derek included) experienced 24 hours of exhaustion and low-grade misery, I got nothing.  While, I'm not upset that I didn't suffer the nausea, chills, fatigue etc that people have warned about, but I can't help but wonder if my immune system is doing anything.

I've applied for seven new jobs since getting laid off on Monday. I hope something pans out. Derek is in quite a funk because he's back to being the only earner, which I get, but at the same time... way to make it all about you, dude. He's constantly asking me "what do you want to do?", as if he could magic up the perfect job if he just knows what I'm looking for.  

I don't think he'd take it well to know that I don't want to work right now. I want to be available to Genevieve and ensure she has a good summer, without the guilt of "I should be working" or "I should be parenting" fighting in my head constantly. When I was working, I felt like Derek resented that I wasn't able to do all those things I'd been doing to help VV at school, but now he resents having to bring in all the money. I'm sure a lot of it is pandemic-ness — hard to be content in this climate of fear — but life is a trade-off whether there is a pandemic or not. Unless you're rich.