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My brain is broken
Dec. 9th, 2004 02:06 pmI can't focus worth shit today. All I want to do is surf the interwebnet, reading blogs and fanfic and playing games of Zuma. Unfortunately, I'm at work, and I'm trying to be all responsible and mature and productive. You can see how well that's working, by the fact that I am updating my LJ at this moment!
I feel really burned out; I'm not looking forward to this weekend. There's stuff going on, good stuff, but there's also a lot of hurry up and wait. For instance, we need to be downtown TO by 9 am on Saturday. Some of you haven't seen me early in the morning; it's not pretty. We could probably be home by mid-afternoon on Saturday, but since we are already in town, we should stop and see some people. On Sunday, I think the am is free, but it's D's Mom's birthday, so we are hooking up with the Wongs in Scarberia for supper. Then of course, the weekend is over, and it's back to work.
That's not too much going on, and it'll be fun, it's just the damn driving that's getting me down, even though I'll just be a passenger. I've got things I want to do before Christmas (clean, get the tree up, bake, clean, shop, decorate, X-stitch gifts, clean - my house is really messy), and I have no idea when I'll get to them. I also want to enjoy the holidays. For the past 8 years, I've had between 10 and 14 days off for the holidays; 4 years during school, and the happy, shiny 4 paid years while I was at Angoss. This year, I'm on contract, which at Xmas, is a lose, lose situation - take time off, don't get paid, or work, get burned out and depressed when you have to watch everyone else enjoy their time off. My boss also mentioned the possibility of overtime as the schedule slips more and more, but I don't know if I can face being here any longer in a day, even for time-and-a-half.
It's tempting to delete this - I feel like I'm whining. I know there are people out there who would feel lucky to have my problems instead of their own. (Obviously, I'm not one of those people who gets stronger when faced with adversity.) However, these are the problems I'm dealing with, and I'm not loving them very much right now.
I feel really burned out; I'm not looking forward to this weekend. There's stuff going on, good stuff, but there's also a lot of hurry up and wait. For instance, we need to be downtown TO by 9 am on Saturday. Some of you haven't seen me early in the morning; it's not pretty. We could probably be home by mid-afternoon on Saturday, but since we are already in town, we should stop and see some people. On Sunday, I think the am is free, but it's D's Mom's birthday, so we are hooking up with the Wongs in Scarberia for supper. Then of course, the weekend is over, and it's back to work.
That's not too much going on, and it'll be fun, it's just the damn driving that's getting me down, even though I'll just be a passenger. I've got things I want to do before Christmas (clean, get the tree up, bake, clean, shop, decorate, X-stitch gifts, clean - my house is really messy), and I have no idea when I'll get to them. I also want to enjoy the holidays. For the past 8 years, I've had between 10 and 14 days off for the holidays; 4 years during school, and the happy, shiny 4 paid years while I was at Angoss. This year, I'm on contract, which at Xmas, is a lose, lose situation - take time off, don't get paid, or work, get burned out and depressed when you have to watch everyone else enjoy their time off. My boss also mentioned the possibility of overtime as the schedule slips more and more, but I don't know if I can face being here any longer in a day, even for time-and-a-half.
It's tempting to delete this - I feel like I'm whining. I know there are people out there who would feel lucky to have my problems instead of their own. (Obviously, I'm not one of those people who gets stronger when faced with adversity.) However, these are the problems I'm dealing with, and I'm not loving them very much right now.
