Take a Hike (LJIdol Week 10)

[garnigal]

Is there anything more demoralizing than being unwanted?

“Take a hike, loser!”

“Get lost, geek!”

“Get bent.”

Is there anything more hurtful than being rejected?

“You’ve got nothing I want.”

“What is that? Eww!”

“Just shut up.”

Is there anything more frightening than a room full of your peers?

“What is she even wearing?”

“God, she’s such a brown-noser!”

“My mother made me invite her.”

At 15, these were the worst things I’d faced. I imagined every whisper was about me; my clothes, my hair, my books. I imagined every slight was intentional, nasty word was meant to drive me to tears.

At 40, I want to reach back in time and slap myself silly or hug myself breathless. No one cares about you as much as you think they do. No one loves themselves as much as they should.

There are many worse things to face than teenage rejection.

Since then, I’ve been in car accidents, lost family members, been fired and gotten cheated on.

These things are all worse than the things that made me cry at 15. But at 40, I know that I’m lucky, even in the worst things that have happened to date.

I’m safe.

I’m loved.

And every once in a while, I get to take a hike.

Comments

[penpusher.livejournal.com]

The real lessons, the ones we truly need to make it through life, are the ones taught outside of what we think of as the "classroom," aren't they? And really, a school that specialized in those sorts of lessons would provide the information to help us and maybe even make everyone's experience of life better, so we could retain our knowledge better.

Let's make that happen.

[garnigal.livejournal.com]

A lot of those lessons are incredibly painful though, too. I don't ever want to see my daughter bullied like I was (and I got off lightly), but by the same token it made me read more, which led me to examining people's motives more because of the rich inner lives I'd been introduced to in literature.